Waiting

Waiting-I often think that waiting is the story of my life. It seems like
I
have been waiting FOREVER for the fulfillment of the promise that God made
to me so many years ago. Sometimes, I wonder how on earth I have been able
to hang on for so long. But I know it is the grace of God. And nothing but
the grace of God.

My day-to-day life is fraught with waiting as well. The waiting usually
starts even before the nurses get me dressed around 6 or a little before.
Most mornings, I wake up before then and I have to wait until the nurses
come. The waiting is especially difficult when my heel(s) is sore or when I
have some other pain that changing position would relieve.

Once I am dressed, I still stay in bed until around 7:30 when the day nurses
get me up and I can start using my computer until breakfast. That is not
until between 9 and 9:30 so there is another period of waiting. Except that
is when I do my Bible reading so I don't really consider it waiting as it
goes by pretty quickly.

After breakfast, it is back to my computer for the rest of the morning which
goes by quite quickly. They come to get me for lunch and, afterwards, I just
sit and listen to music, waiting until the nurses come to put to bed for a
rest. How long I wait, depends on how busy they are with other people.
Unless the nurses decide to put me to bed first. I know that with 30 people
to look after, somebody has to wait. Once the waiting is over, I am always
glad to get into bed because I  am tired and my neck feels better when I lie
down with a pillow under it. I am happy just to lie and listen to
Christian music.

However , after a couple of hours, I am waiting again. This time, I am
waiting to get up and back on my computer until supper. After supper, I
usually just watch tv as I don't have the energy for much else. I am good
until about 9 or 9:30 when I am getting tired and start waiting for bed.
Unless, of course, there is something riveting on tv. Then bedtime comes too
soon.

Once in bed, there is another wait, To fall asleep. Sometimes, it is not a
long wait but, other times, it seems like forever. And all I can do is lie
there and wait. I can't get up and read or watch tv until I feel like
sleeping.

There are other times of waiting in my life. When I am going out, I have to
wait until somebody comes to get me. I used to just sit and wait which was
really tedious. But, now, I use my computer until they come so the wait
isn't so bad.

Another wait I have is when people say that they are going to visit me at a
certain time. I look forward to visitors so I wait with anticipation. I am
ok with it until the designated time or even a few minutes after. But what
does upset me is waiting and waiting for people who never do show up. That
has happened to me a few times.

I do understand that, because I have to depend on other people for
everything, the times of waiting are inevitable. But I also believe that God
is using these times of waiting and, in the long run, I will be a better
person for it. At least, it is teaching me patience, that word we all love
so much!