Tomorrow

Tomorrow-One afternoon, while I was lying in bed, just vegging and listening
to music, a phrase from a song caught my attention. The words were, "No
matter what tomorrow brings, I will praise the Lord". My first thought was
that, perhaps, I could use those words as the starting point of a blog. Not
too often but at times,I get the inspiration for one of my blogs from one
of the songs that I am listening to. I started to think my tomorrow could be
extremely good extremely bad or the same as it has been for so long. I have
no way of knowing. However, what I do know is this. Whatever tomorrow brings, I will hopefully still be praising the
Lord.

Perhaps tomorrow will be extremely good. For me, the ultimate good would be to be
TOTALLY restored to health. Every part of me. It is what I have hoped and
dreamed about for so long. I always think that I would like to go to sleep
one night and wake up the next morning totally healed. That is not likely to
happen but no happen how my healing comes about, it will be cause to praise
God. Once in awhile, I get a bit concerned that I might be so excited that I
forget to praise and thank God for my healing.

But even just a partial healing would make for a good tomorrow. If I can't
have it all at once, I usually think that I would most like to be able to
talk. To be able to freely converse with people and not always be
misunderstood. I am guessing that my life would be less lonely if I could
talk. And a LOT less frustrating! If I could talk, I could read scriptures
out loud, sing along to my music out loud, pray out loud and best of all,
praise out loud. Being able to talk would definitely be an incentive to
praise God. Not that I should need an incentive.

Another scenario that would make for a good tomorrow would be if I regained
movement. Even if just in my arms and hands. I sometimes think of how much
easier my life would be if I could even just move that much. I could use a
computer like everyone else and, if the power went off and my computer
turned itself off, I could turn it back without needing somebody to do it
for me. To communicate, I could write things down instead of struggling with
that speech board. I could feed myself. Best of all, I could read BOOKS!
Even a limited amount of movement should elicit praise from me.

One other partial healing that would make for a good tomorrow would be if
the symptoms of cancer would leave for good. Right now, they may leave for
awhile but they always come back. But if they didn't, I would have another
reason to praise God.

Unfortunately, there is a flip side to all this. It is entirely possible
that my tomorrow may be worse than my today. I don't feel that it is
possible but I know that it is. For one thing, the symptoms of cancer that I
am feeling could become much more intense. And, on top of all that is wrong
with me, I could develop other health issues. Perhaps, heart problems,
kidney problems, etc. I have always been thankful for my eyesight and
hearing. My life is difficult even with them so I can't even imagine life
without them. There are all sorts of ways that life for me or anybody can
get worse come tomorrow. I have learned that it is easy to praise God when
everything is going the way we want but not so easy when everything is going
wrong. But in times like that, I make myself start to praise God. I figure I can
always praise Him for who He is and His unconditional love for me, no matter
how much the circumstances stink.

Another way that my tomorrow could be worse is death. None of us is
guaranteed tomorrow. Although, for a born-again Christian, death is
definitely not a "worse" . When I die, I will still be praising God. It will
just be in Heaven where everyone else will be praising Him as well.

But I also have to accept that my tomorrow may be no different than my
today. With the same problems and challenges. I have learned, though, that
praising God is vital for me just to get through each long day. If I ease up
on the praise, I am more susceptible to depression. Which, in turn, makes it
more difficult to praise God. So I try to keep a praising atmosphere in my
room. However, at times, my emotions get out of control and then the last
thing I feel like doing is praising God.

As I was writing this blog, the words to a different song came to mind. I
won't even try to quote it exactly but it says that the God of the good
times is the same God in the bad times. That about sums it up. Of course, He
is worthy of all my  praise in the good times. I have to admit though,
that since I became a born-again Christian, there have been more bad times
than good ones. If I just praised in the good times, I probably wouldn't
praise Him too often. But I know He is just as worthy of my praise when
everything goes haywire. Maybe even more. And His deserves my praise in
times like now, when day after day is the same as the previous day and there
is no indication that things will ever change.