Time To Quit

Time To Quit-I admit that I struggled with this one. The title came to me a
few days ago but I didn't have a clue what it means. Did the Holy Spirit
mean it is time to stop writing blogs? Or, perhaps, did it mean that I
should give up on my healing altogether? But, then, it wasn't the Holy
Spirit that I heard from. He would never tell me something like that. I am
still not too sure about it but I wrote down a few ideas.

One thing that I would like to quit are all the sleepless, or little sleep,
nights. I always have gone through spells where I have had trouble sleeping
but they are much more frequent now. Before the stroke, if I couldn't sleep,
I would get up, make a cup of tea and read until I felt like sleeping. Now,
though, all I can do is lie there and wait for morning. At times, I do pray
or quote scriptures to myself, but too often I stew because I can't sleep.
And, of course, the more I stew, the less likely I am to fall asleep.

Another thing that I would like to quit is frustration. After years of
living with frustration, I am frustrated with feeling frustrated so much of
the time. Perhaps the one thing that frustrates me the most is the inability
to speak. It is frustrating not to that be able to take part in
conversations. Equally frustrating is that speech board. At times, it is
hard to make people understand that I want to say something on the speech
board. When they do pick it up, it not always easy to make myself
understood. Not being able to move has plenty of frustrations as well. I
have no intention of mentioning most of them or this blog would be too long.
One thing that really, really frustrates me is when I am working on my
computer and there is a power outage. My computer turns itself off so, when
the power comes back on, I have to wait until somebody turns my computer
back on.

I probably should quit watching so much tv but I know I won't unless the
Holy Spirit specifically tells me to. However, I only watch tv in the
evenings. Years ago, to help pass time,I would watch tv in the afternoon if
sports were on. Until the Holy Spirit pointed out that it was too much tv if
I watch both afternoon or evening. So I cut out afternoon tv. I also limit
myself to mostly watching sports. I once asked the Lord if I should watch so
many sports. His reply was to continue to watch but also to pray for the
salvation of those players.

There are some things , though, that I know it is not time to quit. One is reading the Bible. It is never time to stop reading the Bible. I have read the Bible many times but I never get tired of it. The Bible encourages me when I need encouraging, it comforts me when I need comfort, it gives me hope when I need hope, etc. No matter how many times I have read a passage of the Bible, something new always seems to jump out at me. My favorite time is when I am reading the Bible. I do the majority of it before breakfast. The nurses are really busy at that time, so I know I won't be disturbed.

Another thing that I know it is not time to give up is prayer. Prayer is simply communication with God. My times of formal prayer may be limited but I talk to God in my mind constantly. To be honest,I am not sure that stopping breathing would be any more difficult for me than to stop communicating with God.

I know that it is not time for me to stop going to church. Because I am hurting so badly, I often have to fight the temptation to isolate myself and stop going to church. But I also know that it is the worst thing that I could do. I need all the prayer, encouragement and support I can get from my church family,

These blogs. I often think that I should stop writing them because I feel I am out of things to write about. So far, though, the Holy Spirit has always come up with something for me to write about. So I will continue to write them. Unless the Holy Spirit makes it very clear to me that it is time to quit.