States of Mind

States Of Mind-I really didn't know what what to write about this time and
the Holy Spirit wasn't giving me any help. But, close to the last minute, I
felt that He was telling me to write about me. I figured that was a problem
though. I really do feel like I have written everything there it is to write
about myself. So I had to consult the Holy Spirit again about what to write
on. The idea came to me to mention some of the states of mind that I go
through which can  change several times in a single day.

When I was saved, my state of mind was sheer joy. Joy because there really
was a God, joy because I will be healed in this life and joy because I am
not going to hell. I was so full of joy that I barely noticed all the
negative circumstances that were, and still are, in my life.

However, after years of dirt being shoveled on top of that joy, l have to
battle against some negative states of mind. One is anger. At times, I do
get angry at a specific person or situation but that usually blows over
quite quickly. At other times, though, I feel angry but I really don't know
why. At times like that, I usually try to hide my anger but not always
successfully. Not too often but a few times, I have even been angry at God.
It is not something I want to be doing frequently but, if it does happen, I
know He can handle it and will continue to love me just as much.

At other times, I don't really feel angry but more just irritated and
restless. At times like that I don't know what to do. I want something but I
don't know what. The best I know to do is try, again not always
successfully, to relax and start reading the Bible. The Bible seems to be an
anecdote for any negative state of mind that I may be in.

Depression is a state of mind that I struggle with a lot. However, when I am
feeling depressed, I have learned to take a look at what I am thinking
about. Usually, I wallow in self-pity for a bit first but, when I do look at
my thoughts, I find that they have gotten off of Jesus and what He has
promised in the Bible. Once I get my focus back where it should be, the
depression leaves. I have also learned that a little depression from time to
time is ok as long as I get over it quickly.

Sometimes, though, my state of mind is not anger or irritation or depression. It is just plain tired. I have been through a lot and, times like that it is so tempting to call it quits. But I have to keep fighting. I have to get out of bed, on to my computer and to continue inhaling scriptures, especially on healing. I must continue to make healing confessions and whatever else will keep me on track. I can't give up. I want to see how this ends.

Quite often, my state of mind is neutral. I am not really happy but I don't feel down either. It is times like this that I spend a lot of my time thinking about things that are not going to pull me down.

However, sometimes I am in a positive state of mind. I am even happy at times. Happiness is dependent on circumstances so what on earth do I have to be happy about? One thing that usually makes me happy is the praise and worship at church. My grandchildren always make me happy. Lots of simple things but I mentioned those in a previous blog.

Perhaps my favorite state of mind is when I feel calm, peaceful and rather mellow. I know that God is in control so all is well. When I am feeling like that, not much can disturb me. Unfortunately, it is just a matter of time until the negative circumstances in my life start to overwhelm me again.

It would really nice, for all of us, to remain on an even keel all the time. But, like everyone else, I am human with emotions that go up and down and my state of mind goes with them!