Pros and Cons

Cons And Pros-Obviously, there are plenty of things in my life that I would
classify as definite "cons" but there also some aspects of my life that
really some "pros" in my life. Which I will talk about later but, first, I
would like to discuss some of the "cons" in my present life.

The main "con" in my life are the health issues. Not being able to move or
speak for so long has been really hard and frustrating for me. Now, I have
cancer to deal with on top of everything else. Cancer is a scary word, even
for somebody in my condition. I don't believe I will die from it but, if I
do, I am not afraid to die. I am a born-again Christian so why should I be?
What I am kind of afraid is the suffering I MIGHT have to deal with
before I am rid of the cancer. But that is when my mind starts thinking more
than one day at a time.

I lead a tedious, boring life. I am extremely grateful for my computer which
enables me to read the Bible and to communicate with others. However, the
same thing day after day can get pretty monotonous. Times when my computer
is down, thankfully not often, I am really bored and feeling helpless as
there is virtually nothing I can do without that computer.

Another "con" in my life is loneliness. For two reasons. First, I am lonely
because I am alone most of the time. I don't get a huge amount of visitors
and even the nurses are too busy to spend much time with me. So I spend most
the time alone in my room, puttering on my computer. That suits me just
fine. At least, most of the time. Just once in awhile does the lack of
people in my life overwhelm me. The second source of loneliness for me is my
inability to speak. There is nothing more lonely than to hear conversations
all around me and not be able to take part. For that reason, I generally
prefer to be alone or in the company of one other person. However, I never
feel lonely for too long because I know that Jesus is always with me and I
can commune with him anytime I want.

That is enough about the "cons" in my life. I have to admit, though, that
there are some "pros" or advantages. The main one is having Jesus as my Lord
and Savior. That is better than all the bad in my life. With Him and His
constant presence in my life, I can endure anything.

A second "pro" in my life that I don't have as many other things in my life as other people do that distract me from God. Things like jobs, families, etc. Instead, I can just get up and start reading the Bible and spending time with God. I suppose, though, my computer could become a distraction if I let it. But I discipline myself to do my Bible reading before I do anything else. Ultimately, I guess that, no matter how many distractions we have, it is our personal responsibility to put God first.

Also, all the time that I have is a "pro" in my life. I can spend as much time as I want with God simply because I don't have all the commitments that other people do. On the other hand, all the time that I have is a major "con" in my life. I have so many long hours in a day that I am always trying fill up. I spend plenty of time reading the Bible but I can't do that all the time. Especially as I spend the afternoons in bed and can't use my computer!

One other thing that, surprisingly, has been a "pro" in my  is having cancer that can't be treated. One aspect of it, anyway. Sheer desperation has made me turn and cling even more to God and His promises. I have always had a pretty close relationship with God because of all the time I spend alone with Him. Now, though, it is even better. I am spending even more time getting His promises on healing, encouragement, hope, peace, etc.

So my life is full of "pros" and "cons". I imagine it is the same for most people. For me, to keep myself from being depressed, I need to make myself focus more on the "pros" and less on the "cons".