Happy Thoughts

Happy Thoughts-This blog is the product of another night in which I was
having trouble sleeping. Rather than dwelling on the frustration of not
being able to sleep, I started thinking about my next blog and hoping I
might get an idea to write about. In my blogs, I usually attempt to paint a
picture of what my life is at present. Unfortunately, that doesn't always
make for the most cheerful reading. There is not a whole lot of happy going
on in my life right now. However, I do have lots of time to think and not
all my thoughts are negative. I started thinking about all my "happy"
thoughts and I was surprised that I came up with as many as I did.

Happy thought #1-"I am not going to hell, I am going to Heaven" Lots of
times, I think that I am going through hell but I know very well that the
real hell would be a LOT worse. In fact, that is one of the things that
keeps me going. I often think that I am not going to hell for anybody or
anything and that might happen if I give up. But, the thought of Heaven. Now
that is a happy thought! I don't really have any idea what Heaven will be
like and my finite mind can't wrap itself around the idea of living forever
but I know that it will be awesomely, mind-bogglingly good!

Happy thought #2-"I am healed and I don't have to wait for Heaven" I may not
look or feel healed but my healing is there on the inside. One of these
days, it will move from the inside to where it can be seen. I have lived so
long not being able to move or speak that I have trouble imagining being
able to move and speak freely. But I know that it will happen so I guess
that I will find out.

Happy thought #3 "Jesus is my best friend" I have shared before what a
lonely life I lead. Peoplewise, anyway. However, it is a happy thought to
know that Jesus is always with me even when people can't be. And, like any
true friend, He is always honest with me. He comforts me when I really do
need it but He will also rebuke me when He thinks I need it.

There are plenty of other happy thoughts that I have about Jesus but, now, I
want to mention some other happy thoughts.

Happy Thought #4 "My grandkids are so precious" My real grandson doesn't
live here so I mostly just see him via skype. But is a happy thought when I
can have a skype visit with him, watch his antics and listen to his
5-year-old chatter. However, I do get to see my "adopted" grandkids
frequently. And, I may add, love every minute of it! Even when I am having
one of these days when I think that I will never smile again, they never
fail to bring a smile to my face. They are so sweet and innocent. Aside from
Jesus, grandkids just may be the best thing in my life right now!

Happy thought #5 "I love my computer-most of the time" Most importantly, my computer is my Bible. With the internet, I am able to read lots of different translations. I also have a separate Bible program that has several older translations, commentaries, an older dictionary and a small selection of books. Right now, I am using it to read through the sermons by Charles Spurgeon which I really enjoy. So, as long as my computer is working, I have no excuse for not reading and studying the Bible. My computer is also the way I do most of my communicating. I use the e-mail to stay in touch with friends and relatives. Also, when I need to talk to somebody about something, I can just send them an e-mail rather than having go through the nurses. Finally, that computer is my source of entertainment. I use it both watch tv and to read at leisure. Once in awhile, though, my computer won't do what I want it to do. Then I don't love it quite so much!

Happy thoughts #6 "I get to go out" It is always a happy thought when I know I have the opportunity to get out of Long-term Care. Of course, going to church is always a special time but I also have happy thoughts when I know that I will be going somewhere else. Be it shopping, out to eat or some other destination.

Happy thought #7 "I am getting a visitor" Because of the communication difficulty, I pretty much have to interact on a one-to-one basis and it is easier here where there are less distractions. So, it is a really happy thought that I will actually be able to converse with somebody. On the other hand, there are people who come especially to read to me. The thought of them coming is every bit as happy for me.

If I wanted to, I could think of more happy thoughts but the gist of the matter is this. I have a lot of time to think and, for sure, not all my thoughts could be classified as happy. But it is also true that some of my thoughts are definitely "happy".