Ways That I Depend on God

Ways That I Depend On God-The Holy Spirit inspires all of my blogs but,
every so often, I know that I  absolutely have to write about a particular
subject. This is one one of those times. I just know that I have to write
about ways that I depend on God. I am not too sure why but I do remember the
Holy Spirit telling me that God didn't call me to understand but to obey.
So...

The first, and foremost, way that I depend on God is for my ultimate healing
in this life. No doctor can restore me to the health that I had before the
stroke but Jesus can and will. My only part in my healing is to make sure
that, out of frustration and fatigue, I don't give up.

But, I also depend on God for other, what I call my little, healings. If I
complained to the nurses whenever I have some kind of pain or discomfort, I
would be complaining to them most of the time. Instead, when I get a
toothache or earache or some other ache, I chose to pray and the pain
usually goes away. However, I have found that the pain will sometimes try to
come back so I have to stand against the pain, in prayer or by speaking to
the pain to get out of here, until it is gone for good. To be honest, a lot
of times, the nurses never know the pain that I have been in. As I was
writing this, I thought of the times when they were feeding me, something
got caught in my throat and I felt like I was choking. I just thought the
name "Jesus" and it went down. This hasn't happened in a long time, though,
as everyone is pretty careful that I don't choke.

I also depend on God to help me with other things as well. Because I can't
do anything on my own, I have to depend on outside help. If another person,
nurse or visitor, is around, I will get that person to help me but there is
not always another person around. Then I have to depend on God. There are
times I need a nurse but they don't hear me calling. But, if I pray , one
will often come. It is really quite amazing the "small" things that God will
do help me. One time, I got too hot at night. But, because I can't just
throw off the blankets, so I prayed and, all of a sudden, there was a cool
breeze in my room. Not too long ago, I needed my birth certificate. But I
didn't think I had it and I wasn't sure how I could get. The thought kept
coming to me to look in my wallet. So I asked a nurse to look in my wallet
and, sure enough, there it was. These are just a few examples of the
"little" things that God does for me because I can't do anything for myself.

I definitely depend on God for the strength and courage to face each day. What I face everyday day does take strength (mostly mental) and courage. In myself, I know I don't have what it takes. Left on my own, I am pretty sure I would either dead or mental hospital by now. But, thankfully, God has not left me on my own. I really have no idea how He keeps me going but, somehow, I keep motoring along.

I also depend on God to remind me of things. I have always had a good memory but I am now at the age that, from time to time, it needs a bit of jogging. Because I can't do anything, I can't write it on the calendar or, in this age, put it in my phone. When I want to remember something, I simply ask the Holy Spirit to remind me and He does.

I depend on God for companionship. I spend a lot of time alone so it is wonderful to know that He is there all the time for me to talk. Even if they wanted to, there are plenty of times that people are not able to be with me. It is nice to have a companion who is with me at all times. Even in the middle of the night.

Finally, I depend on the Bible which is God speaking to me through the written word. I depend on all the promises God has made in the Bible, including healing. I depend on the Bible to cheer me up when I am feeling down and depressed. I depend on the Bible to keep me company when I am feeling lonely. And I depend on the Bible when I feel restless and don't know what I want to do.

As much as anything, I found this blog encouraging to write. It encouraged me to focus on the ways I can depend on God. And it encouraged me to recall some of the neat things God has done for me in the past.