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Tuesday, 26 May 2015

Amazed

  Amazed-Taking the meaning of amazed as being filled with wonder or
surprise or astonishment, I started thinking of things that have amazed me
in the past and/or amazing me in the present or will amaze me in the future.

The most amazing thing in my life, past, present and future, is God. I was
totally amazed to discover that there really is a God. One that wants to
have a personal relationship with each one of us. I grew up knowing about
God but He was pretty much an abstract concept who had no relativity to my
day to day life. But the day that young man prayed for me to receive Jesus
as my Savior, everything changed. As I felt the heavy load being taken off
my shoulders, I knew the reality of God. For the first time in a long time I
had hope. Hope of healing. No doctor can help me but God can. Since then, my
hope has dimmed a little but it is still there. Over the years, I have gone
through a lot and many "meltdowns" but I can honestly say that, even in the
middle of a severe meltdown, I have never denied the reality of God or His
presence in my life. Even after all these years, I am still amazed that
there really is a God. But God will be in my future too. For sure, when I
get to Heaven and see Him face to face. What a day that will be!

Another thing that has amazed me in the past, and still amazes me is me. I
better clarify that statement. I am constantly amazed that I have been able
to hang on for so long. That is all God's doing, though, and none of mine.
On my own, I would have caved in long ago. In fact, quite often, I ask God
how He is keeping me going.

People amaze me. Both for the good and the bad. It always amazes me what
some people will do for other people, usually with nothing in return. People
like Mother Theresa and countless others who give up everything to help out
people who can't help themselves. On a smaller, personal level it is just as
amazing what some people will do for me. I have a friend who, along with her
husband, bought a specially-adapted van just so I could go out-of-town. And
I must mention the time some friends had me over for a sleepover. It was
amazing how much they must have planned to make it work. Just as amazing are
the nurses who, on their own time, came to put me to bed and get me in the
morning. I must mention the man who looks after my finances. If there is a
problem, he works tirelessly to get it sorted out. I can't repay these
people but they do it anyway.

Unfortunately, there is a flip side as well. I don't watch the news but,
most days, I do check the headlines on my computer. It always astonishes me
how cruel people can be to other people. There doesn't seem to be much sense
to it. Even if people are not Christians, that still doesn't explain the
need for such barbaric acts.

Nature amazes me. Before the stroke, I enjoyed being out in nature but it
didn't amaze me like it does now. On the rare occasions that I do get
outside, I usually end up thinking what a beautiful world this must have
been before God put people in it to make a mess of it! Seriously, though, I
do see God in all of nature now. Sometimes I watch nature shows on tv. It
never fails to amaze me how God has put in every creature exactly what they
need to survive in the environment that He has put them in.

These are just a few of the things that I am amazed at. I am sure that I
could probably think of more if I tried. But, by far, I am most amazed that
there really is a God who loves each one of us a lot. 

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