My Blog

-When, several months ago, I was presented with the idea of either
going on facebook or writing a blog, my initial reaction was, "Not on your
life!". For personal reasons, I have chosen not to to have facebook and, to
be honest, I wasn't even too sure what a blog is. However, I did have enough
sense not to outright reject the idea without praying about it first. So I
took it to the Lord and I really felt to go ahead and write a weekly blog.
So, reluctantly, I agreed to a blog.

But, then, there was the question of what to write about. Again, I went to
the Lord. I felt to start with my testimony. That was easy enough to write.
Since then, anything that I have written has been inspired by the Holy
Spirit. Admittedly, I haven't always wanted to write what I wrote.
Especially stuff that pertains to myself. I am quite a private person and I
felt that I was exposing too much of myself. But I made myself do it anyway.

As for actually writing the blogs, that is pretty easy for me. Writing of
any kind has never been a problem for me. Very rarely do I have to stop and
think about the words that I want to use. The words just come as I am
writing. Once in awhile, the inspiration for what I want to write about
doesn't come until the last minute. However, more often, the idea comes a few days before
the actual writing so I have a few days to think about what I want to say.
Though it never comes out exactly the same as I thought.

After writing blogs for quite a few months, I have come to understand that
there are certain benefits arising from them. First, as I mentioned
previously, it is an act of obedience to God. I was reluctant to write a
blog but I did it anyway simply to obey God. And each blog is an act of
obedience because I only write what I believe God wants me to. If I ever
don't have anything from  God, I simply won't write the blog. Every time I do
something that I don't want to do because I want to obey God, it makes me
feel good.

The second benefit is that it is a medium which I can use to tell people
about Jesus. THE most important thing we, as Christians, can do is to tell
others about Jesus. But, not being able to speak, I was at a loss how I
could do that. My speech board certainly wouldn't do. If I wanted to talk to
someone about Jesus, that person wouldn't even know how to use my speech
board. At times, I have wondered if I am using my not speaking as an excuse
not sharing my faith. Now, though, I have no excuse.

Thirdly, the blog has let people get to know me a bit and, hopefully, get to
understand a bit more what life is like for me. I readily admit that, at
first, I didn't much like talking so much about myself and I only did it to
obey God. Now, though, I understand that it was necessary to lay a bit of a
foundation.

Then there have been some benefits to me personally. I admit that it was a
stretch for me to open up about myself. But I have a sneaking suspicion that
is exactly what God intended. Thinking about what I am going to write about helps to put a check
on my helter-skelter thoughts as I focus on Jesus and positive things (most
of the time) instead of all the negative stuff around me. I don't get
depressed when I am thinking about what to write in my blog simply because I
am not feeling sorry for myself. And the blogs help me to pass time. I am
always looking for anything to pass time. Just thinking about what to write
eats up some time, especially when I am in bed and can't use my computer.
The actual writing uses up even more time. It takes me so much time to write
anything that I can easily write for a couple of hours and still have a blog
half written.

In conclusion, even though these blogs started out as a simple act of
obedience to God, I know that I am getting benefits from writing them and,
hopefully, others are getting some benefit by reading them.