Past Present Future Jesus

Past, Present, Future-One night when I couldn't sleep, the scripture that
says that Jesus is the same is yesterday, today and forever. It
started me thinking about the role Jesus has played in my life in the past,
is playing at present and will play in the future.

Jesus in my past-When I was a child, Jesus was part of my life but pretty
much on a "Sunday only" basis. I did go to church and Sunday school but
didn't give Him much of a thought during the week. Then, from the time I was
13 until the stroke, I had no interest in Jesus whatsoever. After the stroke
and the complications that made it appear like I would never recover, I did
try to believe in Jesus and that He could heal me but it was just head
knowledge without any faith at all. However, once I became a born-again
Christian, that all changed. Jesus became, and still is the most important
person in my life. No, my promised healing has not YET  materialized but,
over the years, Jesus has been my best friend. When I feel lonely and need
somebody to talk to, He is always there to talk to. When I am crying and
need comforting, He and the Holy Spirit are right there. Nothing is as
soothing as feeling the presence of MY Lord. When I am bored and don't know
what to do, I often just read the Bible and then I am not bored. And,
occasionally, He rebukes me like any good friend.

Jesus in my present-So that is pretty much how things stand right now.
Except, in March, I was presented with an additional challenge. Breast
cancer. The way I am trying to cope with it is by continuing to tell myself
that my life is controlled by Jesus, not cancer and doctors. Though I
welcome any help that the doctors can give me. That doesn't mean that I
don't have weepy moments. I do but, hopefully, they don't last too long. As
I write this, I am still waiting for a definitive treatment plan for the
cancer. The waiting is hard as I have always been the kind of person who,
when I have to do something that I really don't want to do, likes to do it
as soon as possible and get it over with. If I wasn't a born-again
Christian, the waiting would probably be starting to upset me but, as it is,
I figure that it is all part God's plan for my life. I would be lying, though, if I didn't admit that I sometimes do let it upset me.

Jesus in my future- I do believe I will have a future on this earth. I have no idea when or how my healing will manifest in my life but it will. Only, when it does, I have no idea where I will be living or what I will be doing. The only thing I do know that, after what I have been through, I can't see myself ever not having Jesus as a big part of my life. But there is one thing about my future that I do know. When I die and go to Heaven, I may not know what to expect but I know enough to except a LOT of Jesus.

When I look back on my life, I see that, aside from the years before the stroke, Jesus has been a major, and I mean major, part of my life. And I know He will be forever and ever, both in my remaining years here on earth and my eternal years in Heaven.

* please continue to pray for me regarding the breast cancer.