Breast Cancer

Breast Cancer-I never even considered writing about this until somebody
pointed out that, the more people that know, the more people that can be
praying for me. I have been diagnosed with breast cancer. I suspected as
much because of the lump. Still, actually hearing those words threw me for a
real loop. As long as I didn't know for sure I was able to maintain a
positive attitude. However, once I heard the final verdict, my first thought
was, "Haven't I suffered enough already?" Now I realize that was a
self-centered thought But I am a human and we all, or at least most, of us,
are naturally self-centered. At times, I start to think that it is not
fair but what always stops me is this. God sent His own Son to die on that
cross for us. How fair is that? How can I whine about my lot in life
compared to that?

So I am sharing what I am dealing with right now for several reasons. The
primary one is prayer. I need lots and lots of prayer. I always need plenty
of prayer. But, right now I need a bit extra, for both my physical and
emotional well-being.

I also need to share this for me. Now that I have had some time to process
the information, I know that I need to talk about the cancer and not keep it inside
and have a black cloud cloud hanging over my head all the time. At first, I
couldn't handle the "C" word. Cancer was something that happened to other
people and not to me. But I am now at that point that I can say, on my
speech board, those three words, "I have cancer" and not get too emotional.
Not too often, anyway.I I find it a kind of relief  to talk about the
cancer, especially with ones who have had cancer themselves. It gives me some
idea of what to expect. Though it probably won't be exactly the same.

Another reason for sharing this is that you all will understand that, if
these blogs stop suddenly, it will be because I am undergoing cancer
treatments.

Finally, I am sharing this with you readers simply because writing it down helps me  to sort out my own thoughts about this very unwanted situation. Hope you don't mind.

So, yes, I do have breast cancer but it is temporary. I know very well that God could extract the cancer without any kind of medical intervention. However, I also know that it would be presumption to assume that He is automatically going to do so. I figure the best thing for me to do is to go along with the doctors unless I hear otherwise, LOUD AND CLEAR, from God.

Right now, I seem to be in "on hold" mode. As far as I know, all the tests, scans, pokes and prods are over and I am waiting for some kind of treatment plan. I confess that I don't understand why God is allowing me to go through this, on top of everything else, but I do know this. God is as good a God now as He was before I had cancer and, somehow, it is all going to work out for the best. Both for me and for others.